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Yet another post about happiness

2012-02-13T23:20:00.005+08:00

I've been in a journey to happiness in my life for not so long (maybe 2 or 3 years?).

Then I stumble upon this awkward moment when I start to realize that:

Maybe happiness is not meant to be searched. Maybe happiness is meant to be created by ourselves, by our behavior, our attitude, and our actions.

Classic? Definitely. Cliche? Of course. But those kind of words will not mean anything to you until you experience it yourself.

The journey will continue nevertheless but it should no more be a journey to search for happiness instead it is a journey to create happiness.

Christmas in 2011

2011-12-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

It's christmas time of the year again for 2011!!. It has been almost half of the christmas month but somehow there is not much emotional feelings felt in this year's christmas. I have my early christmas gifts. I enjoy Orchard's christmas decorations as well as the Christmas Tree. I enjoy the atmosphere. Still not as much emo feeling compared to 2010's Christmas. Maybe it means I am quite content with the Christmas? Or it may also mean I do not care enough about the importance and happiness of Christmas this year. Maybe I am happy enough with my current condition that I do not need Christmas festive atmosphere to cheer me up. If it is so...then that is a sad fact :(.

Fragrance

2011-12-08T01:38:00.003+08:00

I have always been careful in selecting the fragrance because I can say I am quite sensitive in olfactory area. Thus I must be comfortable with my fragrance-related toiletries.

But just recently I made a mistake in buying an eau de toilette. Damn it. Now thinking of either selling or giving it out to relatives.

Sentimental

2011-12-05T02:08:00.003+08:00

I am now trying to hold less sentimental value to things that I cherish the most.

I am hoping that by doing this, I will not be affected so much emotionally and physically by those things.

It's a rather childish act but still I will give it a go and see how effective it can be in changing my life.

I am feeling bad though to start doing this in Christmas time.

PS: yeah it is another post to vent out emotional dynamics. Not in any means be useful or understandable by others.

NUS Module Year 4 Sem 2

2011-11-23T04:47:00.003+08:00

Year 4 Sem 2 (Jan-June, 2010)

EE2013 - Matlab and Labview for Electrical Engineers - 4MC

Okay, I had in total 5 EE modules for last semester and it really drove me crazy. First is EE2013. I like this module since it is mainly about programming and it is pretty simple, unlike those of CS1101C or CS1102C. The lecturers are good and helpful in explaining. There will be no final exam but there are CAs to clear including in-class quiz and projects. Projects are basically distributed into various assignments and exercises in class.

EE4401 - Optoelectronics - 4MC

This module is about optical electronics and semiconductor. It is similar to EE2004 but it is just more difficult due to all the equations involved. There is one final exam worth 50% and CAs which include homeworks and labs. Lectures was given in tutorial class and there is a webcast available (my lecturer that time was Mansoor Jalil). Can't say much except to study hard for this module.

EE4411 - Silicon Processing Technology - 4MC

This is actually a pretty fun module because I can learn more about how semiconductor was constructed with less regard to all equations, formulas, and calculations. The calculations involved here are not as difficult as other modules although definitely not something to be underestimated. The tough part is about memorizing all the facts and processes involved in this silicon manufacturing. There is one final exam and two labs for scoring.

EE4415 - Integrated Circuit Design - 4MC

It is a module about circuit design. There is one exam worth 60% and one project worth 40%. The project is about designing a circuit using a VHDL/verilog program. There is a lab manual that will guide you step-by-step through the projects. Basically follow through the steps, try all the tasks, answers all the questions in the end of the manual. The questions will then be your lab report. The module itself divided by 2. First half is about VHDL and 2nd half is about CMOS design. More physics kind of calculation in the second half.

EE4001 - Dissertation - 12MC

Continuation of last semester FYP. For this 2nd semester, I assisted in creating an animated 3D model. It was not as easy as it sounds since there were 2 parts involved i.e. making model and model animation. Creating 3D model required us to build the model from a simple object like box or sphere and mold it into various shape. Then there will be 'bone' added to the molding for movement which will be used for animations later. And we need to 'color' the model using skinning. For animation part, we can either make an animation ourselves by sequencing each act and motion of the model. We do not really need to prepare the model's motion second by second. Basically we only need to know the initial and final position of the model for each sequence and the software will do the rest. Easier way is of course to use the template animation but we need to know how to apply it to the model.

NUS Module Year 4 Sem 1

2011-11-20T01:52:00.001+08:00

Year 4 Sem 1 (Aug-Dec, 2009)

CS3241 - Computer Graphics - 4MC

This module is about creating computer graphics and animation. I did learn a lot about how animation, camera, and 3D stuffs are made during this module. A very fun module especially with the great lecturer Dr. Michael S. Brown. There are 2 'mini-exams' worth 20% each. 4 or 5 programming assignments worth 45% in total. And finally a small in class quiz worth 15%. I cannot say the programming was hard, in fact Dr. Brown gave us a few hint. The trick was in making the bells and whistles.

LAJ1201 - Japanese 1 - 4MC

This module is about learning japanese language as the name suggests. Majority of scoring was taken with tutorial's assignment and there were 3 tutorials! There are a lot of homeworks to do. Basically you need to keep practicing the language everyday to make your life easier so as not to do a lot of memorizing. There is one final exam for this module. Overall learning japanese has been a great experience personally due to my interest in it.

EE3407 - Analog Electronics - 4MC

Analog Electronics was a difficult module for me. No mid-exams to check on how you had progressed and to evenly distribute the scoring. There were only lab assignments and tutorials. So Final Exam is your dead/alive judgement for this module. The module itself is mainly about amplifiers. Power amplifiers, instrumentation amplifiers, also filters. One of the lab assignments was to create an instrumentation amplifiers.

EE3408 - Integrated Analog Design - 4MC

It is a 'similar' module with EE3407 in the sense that we are learning about amplifiers too here. But EE3408 is more similar to EE2005 (transistors, CMOS, nMOS, pMOS). There is one major project here in which we have to design an amplifier circuits that can met specific requirements (ex: my circuit that time needed to generate frequency response both for open-loop and closed-loop design). Also there is one final exam to pass the module.

EE4001 - Dissertation - 12MC

Here is my FYP. My topic was 'Interactive Design and Development of Multiplayer Computer Games'. Such a chim topic, I know. Basically in this FYP i needed to assist a graduate student in doing his interactive game project. I was not even close to making a full game in this FYP. The game project was an online multiplayer game that has user-motion features for interactivity, much similar to Xbox's Kinect or PS3's Move. During that time though, our only commercial competitor was Nintendo Wii (provided we did succeed). During this semester, I helped him to create the GUI for the game.

Geek-ing around

2011-11-12T03:53:00.007+08:00

I couldn't stop feeding my geek mind lately. There's so many things I wanna try and build that I have to list it down:

- a mac mini and use it as server?
- try to use Snow Leopard Server
- try to use Lion Server
- build a home server/NAS/torrent using lian-li Q08? Q25? use Windows Home Server?
- build another PC which is SFF,quiet,run hackintosh, low-to-mid end? use SG03!!
- build a PC which is combo as server, SFF,quiet,run hackintosh, low-mid end

13/11/2011 (Added required spec for each parts):

14/11/2011 (Added items details):

23/11/2011 (added item for Misc PC. Might have to drop idea for server build due to overkill and HDD rising price)
Let's try to brainstorm a spec. Say we're gonna have two PCs for server and another to do misc things.

Server PC: (main intention is for file & itunes server, probably will become webserver & torrent NAS & backup)
-Processor: (low power and performance):

Pentium G620/G620T (35W)
i3-2100/i3-2100T (35w) series

-Motherboard: (many sata ports, dual GBe LAN? mITX):

Intel S1200KP (dual GB LAN, support ECC mem, PCIex16)
Intel Media DH67CF, DH61AG
Zotac H55, H67 (6 SATA ports, WiFi)
Gigabyte H55N, H67N (4 SATA)

-Memory: (2-4GB): Kingston low profile memory, normal memory

-HDD: (1xreliable speedy HDD, multiple green HDDs)
-Case: (mITX, many HDDs)

LianLi Q08 (1xODD, 6x3.5" HDD, 1x2.5" HDD, front USB 3.0)
LianLi Q25 (5x3.5"HDD hotswap, 3x2.5"/3.5" HDD, easy sidepanel access)

-PSU: (<400W? SFX? silent?):

FSP 300W SFX
SStone 450W SFX
Corsair CX400

-OS: hackintosh Lion/Snow Leopard server or WHS 2011
*to put silence in consideration when building parts: Scythe, Noctua, etc.

Misc PC: (main intention is try building stable hackintosh, recording, photoshop, light gaming, browsing/office)
-Processor: (low power and mid-performance, i3? i5?):

i3-2100/2100T

-Motherboard: (hackintosh compatible, all-in features, PCI-eX, WiFi? mITX or mATX?)

Gigabyte GA-H55N/GA-H67N
Asus
Intel
Zotac H67-ITX WiFi

-Memory: (4-16GB)
-HDD: (1xperformance HDD or 1xSSD + 1xgreen or 1xhackintosh HDD + 1xWindows HDD)

SSD - intel?
WD 1TB Blue

-Case: (SG03 for mATX or SG06/Q11 for mITX)

SG03: (mATX/mITX, 2x3.5", 1xODD)
SG06: (mITX, 1x3.5" + 1x2.5" ,1xslim ODD)

-PSU: (400-500W? SFX? silent?)

SG03: SFX Silverstone, Modular
SG06: internal SFX

-OS: (hackintosh or Windows 7)
*put silence in consideration. To use Scythe Shuriken or NT07 for CPU cooler and silent fans

Mac mini PC: (main intention is for files & itunes server. music recording & photoshop & browsing for full-utilize)
- a Mac mini
- HDD storage case for extra HDDs
*to check if possible for a file server to double as working/regular use computer
*to check Snow Leopard (and Server version) compatibility with current Mac Mini

*(23/11/2011) 2011 Mac mini with Snow Leopard might be possible using clone image of early 2011 MBP w/ Thunderbolt

Choose!

2011-11-02T01:29:00.004+08:00

Sometimes we just can't have the luxury to choose.

Yeah...choosing is real luxury because it means we got power and control.

EDIT: To self-correct, actually we CAN choose. Choosing different set of choices to be exact. And most of the time I either avoid to choose or choose the wrong decision. Me Great!

PS: My entry getting more random and stupider each time.

Life up and down

2011-11-01T02:28:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you feel like a genius, smart, sexy, and overflown with confidence.

Another time you feel like a fool, stupid, helpless, and drown in negativity.

It's just part of life ups and downs....(happens mostly as post-alcoholic effect)

What to look forward every week?

2011-10-29T23:18:00.003+08:00

I figure out though...we could not possibly have something to look forward to every week.

The passion to look forward to something stems from the apprehension of boredom.

If we do have something to look forward to every week, we would get bored to look forward for things.

And by then, we will hop back to square one...'nothing to look forward to'.

So...I think the title of this blog is not entirely correct (and I do not intend to change it).

It is not a question of 'What' but rather a question of 'How'.

"How can we look forward every week?"

PS: yeah working life is quite boring. There is nothing such as 'graduation' from working. Retirement age is still so far far far away and I do not intend to look forward to it.

Psychological disorder

2011-10-03T22:57:00.003+08:00

(Another emo entries =D.)

It's either I am having some psychological disorder.

Or it's just not the right time yet.

It's gotta be one or another. definitely. must be. (hopefully).

Males abis, no mood

2011-09-25T19:55:00.002+08:00

hormonal activities start acting up. Mood down to low level and currently no way to bring it up.

must wait for some events and occurrences to boost up the mood.

How do you know that you are bored?

2011-09-12T01:13:00.001+08:00

You know you are bored when:

- you begin to bugging/pestering your friend.
- you are looking for new posts in 9gag and browsing it aimlessly
- etc.

Self complacency

2011-09-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

1 month into the job and I start to get self complacent.

I begin to ignore the development of my personal website.

I am getting into routines...somehow a useless one. Work>dinner>home>browsing>nap>browsing>sleep>wake>work.

I did not learn anything new. I did not do fruitful activities. Laundry and Room cleaning are done randomly or only when they were TRULY needed.

So I think a self compelling must be done to motivate myself and achieve new milestones in life.

I am almost 3.5 years into 20s and there are only 7 years left to make this halcyon age to be fabulous, fantastic, groovy, marvelous, etc.

PS: I am getting a Scholl Foot spray and powder to help remove bad odor from my feet and shoes. I hope it is not just a normal anti-septic powder.

Tinkering with thought 'cause I am a thinker

2011-09-05T01:34:00.002+08:00

I am a thinker. I think about things. Love getting drowned in my own deep thought.

I was a thinker. I am a thinker. I will be a thinker.

One difference with the emergence of social media is that now I can share my thought freely. Thoughts that I previously could only share with my close friends and relatives.

PS: If you guessing I am being emo.....you are not entirely wrong. But I prefer to be called in a deep thought.

Today I do not thank God that it's Friday

2011-08-26T00:02:00.003+08:00

Wew...this is so sad for me. 26 August 2011 is Friday. It should have been my last day of work before going for the long 4 days holiday. But it's just sad.

There's always something that makes us unhappy. I think it's how we deal with the situation that matters.

Luck and Fate, Opportunity and Chance

2011-08-25T02:22:00.005+08:00

Strange thing about the world is that most good things happen when we least expect it. Is it maybe because we do not have any expectation of it that we regard it as good? That if it happens to be bad, we sort of forgive ourselves as well as the situation due to the fact we do not have any anticipation for it.

"How lucky I am :)".

"I was just having a bad hair day".

"It has been fated, there's nothing I can do about it."

"Act at the right time! That is when the opportunity presents itself"

"It was a chance in a lifetime, I should have not missed it".

I have a half-hearted belief about this 'luck'. I see it plays a role in everyday life. But I just refuse to put my faith on it simply because luck is too abstract to grasp. Two person with the same intelligence and diligence starting at the same point in life could possibly end up in a very differently. Another case: One person might be born in a wealthy family and in a healthy condition whereas another might be born in a poor family with only a single kidney or leg.

How I wish people could born equally in status and condition. How I wish everyone has the same luck, fate, chance, and opportunity thus only efforts would make a difference in their life. But then as they say, if it does happen, the world may not be as colorful as it is now. We might lose a little surprise in our life that could help to add a little smile or frown in our faces.

Which one would you prefer?

PS: I learn a new thing. Action speaks louder than words. Sometimes people tell you what you want to hear. It is the action that really defines the intention.

Passing mid 2011

2011-08-22T01:25:00.002+08:00

We are now in the month of August in year 2011. There's only 4 months left to make a change in our life that's gonna make 2011 a brighter year than ever. I feel the need to fulfill our wishes and resolutions of 2011.

The change and events that happened in the first half of 2011 make me stronger and in a way change my view of the world. I do not know what would happen in the second half of 2011 but I can only hope they consist only of good things because I think I had enough share of the bad ones in the first half.

One thing that bothers me though is that I still can not be content of what I have currently. I do cherish them but I just cannot be content with them. I always feel the need for more improvements and achievements as well as acknowledgments. This makes me feels like a teen somehow.

Let 2011 be a great year. And let 2012, the year of Dragon, be an awesome one!

New light behind that new door

2011-08-18T02:23:00.003+08:00

We have to make certain changes in our life. Changes here mean improvements. And it was done by doing a certain action, making a certain effort, going through a certain path which all can lead us to a new light and discovery that were never before.

Basically, we must step out from our comfort zone because I realize they are not all red zones out there.

The door is there. Right in front of us. We just need the key to open the door. The door to the new light that is :).

I wish myself success. I pray to God for success. I make a certain effort to success.

Support me!! (Okay this is way too lame....)

PS: It is official! Koi is better than Gong cha! Cheaper! Tastier! Bigger!

It's not about the money money money...

2011-08-12T02:16:00.006+08:00

Yeah...that's what Jessie J sings in her latest Price Tag song.

Sometimes I feel I am such an insatiable human being. I used to wanting better workplace condition and think that many many money was actually not really useful.

Now that I am in a condition where I need money, I kinda missed the good financial reimbursement of my old occupation :').

But anyway...we must cherish what we currently have. Moreover, I had taken a stand and I am happy with my choice. Now what's left is to just to make the best of it :).

August has to be a good month!!

Random fact: I move from beer to bubble tea (Koi & Gong Cha!!) :). The same $2.xx but sweeter and bubblier (??) :D

TGIF

2011-08-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

First Day I can say T G I F !

*tune in Black's Friday.

Another year has passed

2011-08-05T03:03:00.002+08:00

Phew...another year has passed since mid-year of 2010. Many things happened. Happy sad Bitter sweet memories...as always...every year. And that is good...something to cherish of.

And I am kind of feeling emo right now....while listening to Kenny G's Have Yourself a Merry Little Xmas in this ungodly hour if 3AM. Listening to this song, I am remembering about Christmas and the thought about last christmas and last year strike me thus making me posting this entry.

Now I am in the middle of conversion...entering a new life, entering a new joy and depression. I wish this year's Christmas is different from last year. And I am always wishing the same wish that I had since every Christmas from 5-6 years ago.

Phew...Kenny G's gentle sax really has a great effect on me *_*~

Variables

2011-07-01T18:00:00.002+08:00

Too much variables that are outside my control...

Allahu Akbar

2011-06-22T02:16:00.002+08:00

I love the shouts of Islamic prayer that usually happens in the morning, noon, or afternoon. I am not a Moslem but I've been living in this Islamic country since I was born. These shouts fill my days and I just realized I missed them when I went to singapore for my study.

12.00 PM.
When I hear shouts during this hour, I reminisce those days at school when finally we had a lunch break. Time to raid our favorite food stalls and gang up with our clique to chat while eating.

3.00 PM
Shouts in this hour simply reminds me of time. It's school-end time when I was still in high school. It's coffee break time when I had too much browsing and internet surfing.

6.00 PM
What can you say, it reminds you the dusk is coming. Finish work and go home as soon as you can. Take break from your favorite TV show. Last but not least, let's prepare for dinner.

4.00 AM
I started to get used to this shout when I studied until late night in high school. It told me that I have been studied too much (no kidding). And I used to get scared because during this hour, dogs started to bark against each other (animals shouting at late night to dawn, do I need to tell you what I am scared at?). It was this shout that gave me peace and calm that at least there were people awaken in this hour. Not only...dogs.

Chatting

2011-05-21T04:12:00.003+08:00

My chatting rate kind of degrades over time as I grow up.

I used to chat with strangers in mirc during my secondary school times. Getting to know various kinds of people, guys and girls, younger and older. I used to get their hp numbers most of the time because hp was a popular trend that time.

During high school, I moved on from mirc to msn messenger. Only chatted to a few people I know well. But mirc was not a popular trend anymore that time. Social media sites such as Friendster comes to light. I guess in a way, it replaced mirc as a mean to get to know stranger and make new friends.

The trend of MSN still continued to college times. We used it to chat randomly with friends when we either bored or need something. Some of us also used it to make an approach to our crushes. Social sites trend moved on to facebook. Friendster became obsolete, less used, and finally forgotten. Sometimes facebook's wall was also used as a mean of short chat. Maybe because Friendster claims their 'wall' as a testimonial place which made people think that only testimonial-like comment maybe posted on its wall. Facebook claims their wall as comment place which makes people to be more comfortable in writing random comments on other's wall.

Now that I step further into working world....honestly I chat very very less. Only to certain people for specific purpose like when I need to inquire or need something. Now I chat much more with my parents. I chat so less with people to the point that I forget I even have an instant messenger application in my notebook. I also hardly know whether I am online or offline in MSN. I have a habit of leaving my computer and MSN on to check if there any people leaving message for me. I usually expect a message or two so that I have a 'news' or 'surprise' to look forward to. Now...I don't expect anything at all. MSN's message is no more the first thing to check in my computer when I come into my room(but computer is still though). When I bored, got nothing to do, or just want to slack off...I seldom bug my friends for a chat. I prefer to browse around aimlessly.

I feel social life circle gets smaller and smaller as we grow up. Yes....I know it may not apply to everyone but I believe it does apply to most people. This kind of makes me sad. I am still young....I still want to have fun with all my friends. I don't have a girlfriend to share with so I want to have a bigger social circle to share things with my friends. But I guess it is just either too late or it is the wrong time to do so.

PS: random fact...beer tastes better on my tongue lately ;)

So...yeah

2011-05-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

So...yeah...one load off...finally.

To stop, stare, and set

2011-05-01T04:21:00.005+08:00

Ok...lemme just state it. I want to quit my job. I want to quit so badly but at the same time I financially can't because I haven't gotten a new job.

Financial reason is one thing. There is another reason. Even more important than the monetary ones.

It's about the next path of life. Where I will go next? What I want to do next? What I can choose to do for the next job?

I do not want to do the same mistake. I do not want to anyhow choose any job or company because it may turn back to you in the end. But when you apply for job so many time without getting a single offer, or a single interview, or even a single rejection (yes, being rejected hurts but it's better than being left in wonder), you will start sending out your resumes sporadically and randomly. Hoping to get at least a single call from unknown number wishing that it is your next company calling you for interview. Or maybe you're hoping your next email notification comes from your so-wished employer.

For sure I can not stay here for a long period because this is not exactly the field that I am planning to delve further. For sure the environment here does not help to work well. And for sure...I am not sure what kind of job I want next.

Whether it is to do what I am good at. Whether it is to do what I am qualified at. Whether it is to do what I am graduated from. Or whether it is to do what I am passionate about. All are questions that remain without answer. They are not rhetorical. They just stay there waiting for answers which I have to go and figure out.

Sometimes I just wanna laugh at myself. I have been living for more than 20 years. I have past my 21. I have undergone so many different things, different hardships, and different lessons. Still I stay without any strong resolution for life. Even worse, now I do not know why I am living or what I wanna do in life.

Quarter-life crisis is a tough phase indeed...

Take a Break

2011-04-14T00:26:00.003+08:00

I really want to take a break from work and do my own useful things.

Life sucked out by job is such a bad thing.

Saturday 23/04/2011
Yep...I definitely need a break and ponder what I need and I want to do.

Never again your life is led by condition. Let it led by passion and determination.

Happiness

2011-04-02T03:37:00.004+08:00

Excerpted from The Ridge Magazine (February 2011 issue).

How to be happy

...So at this point in our lives, as students in the National University of Singapore, here are the few things that determine our happiness:

1. Getting good grades
Me: Grades don't really make me happy, I can laugh on some of my modules which I got C. But indeed there are some modules that I really like or take a pride in that I do not want to score so low.

2. Finding that elusive love of our lives
Me: Of course. Every guys dream of saving his damsel in distress. Every girls dream of saved by her knight in white shining armor. I dream on my adorable girl next door.

3. Rolling around in a pile of money
Me: As a student or a working adults, we all want to have some moolah to spend. Being able to spend on a brand new musical instrument, high-end computer, latest gadget, and fashionable attire are always a big welcome for me.

4. Having a large social circle.
Me: Please don't be a social pariah. I myself couldn't live without making a social contact. I try to have a conversation with friends at least once a day. Being able to talk to many different friends and gather new info and updates really recharge me.

...Here is my take on How to be Happy' (and you don't have to pay a cent to hear it!). But then happiness is also a matter of perspective!

1. Don't compare
Wherever or whoever you are,a there will always be someone either worse off or better than you. Comparison never ends, and it just makes you feel unhappy!

2. Be content
Potential happiness is in everything that you own and you are. Don't you forget that.

3. Stop looking for happiness in the future, and start looking for it around you.
That's right, if happiness is defined as a goal, then quite likely your present will be pretty miserable as you always fight to attain that happiness. Happiness is here and in the now, in all the small things around you. Cherish every moment, and you'll always be happy!

4. Starting caring for people other than yourself
In other words, stop being self-centered and help others! Start by simply helping the cleaners pick up the rubbish or help a fellow student who needs your help. Either way, you'll find it rewarding and good for you soul!

Somehow I found this article at the right time. I was in a state of unhappiness that time and I came across this article. Really struck something on to me.

Learning Path

2011-03-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

iPhone Development: Objective-C

Website Development: HTML/CSS/Javascript/RubyonRails/PHP/MySQL

Video design: Premiere/FinalCut

Small updates on June 30, 2011:

Website Development: HTML/CSS/Javascript/RubyonRails/PHP/MySQL

- Managed to touch more into HTML,CSS,RubyonRails, and MySQL.

- now a step closer to my state of web knowledge when I interned in Apple.

- Continue to learn Javascript and PHP for the next path forward

Do something useful pls!

2011-03-19T15:27:00.003+08:00

Pls pls pls do something useful in your free time.

Make every time of our life worth and meaningful.

Of course it does not mean we cannot have fun useless things to do.

Beer

2011-03-16T16:20:00.001+08:00

Since when....I don't even begin to remember. I started to develop a taste in beer.

Job job job

2011-03-15T18:42:00.002+08:00

Honestly....until now I still dunno what job is best for me. What job I like the most. What career path would I wanna go.

Worse....I want to repeat my uni life.

Disorganization

2011-03-12T10:23:00.004+08:00

Lately I am becoming forgetful and blur. Sign of disorganization. And this affects me a lot in home, work, and life.

Quoted from a friend:
procrastination is not from laziness, but from FEAR (making decisions,goals and deadline, rating oneself), DISORGANIZATION (poor distinction of urgency n priority,distractibility,forgetfulness,lumping),and PERFECTIONISM (tendency to jump in & do things by urself, scared of starting to do something, profound need for closure,to follow things til finish)

Emo Time

2011-03-12T10:18:00.002+08:00

Life may not go to the direction that we wanted. That is a fact.

Many obstacles might appear along the plan we had made. Those are the challenges. Many people failed and downed facing this challenge. Only a few overcome them. These few succeed.

80/20 rules? 80 failures. 20 successes. Where am I gonna put my self in?

Aimless Pointless Activities

2011-02-27T11:42:00.001+08:00

Those activities include browsing, youtubing, and online manga reading.

I can waste hours and hours of time doing all those activities.

which in the end gives me nothing.

Hopeless Hope

2011-02-27T11:29:00.000+08:00

I wish I can just continue slacking off and reading manga online while hoping everything will be fine in the end.

But that's just not gonna happen.

Missing those memories

2011-01-29T02:57:00.002+08:00

Really....on the night like this...accompanied by sweet songs from Class95 FM...I am missing those memories.

When I used to supper in Raffles and linger around just to talk cock, chit chat, laugh together, pondering about life...

When I used to come back home late at night...driving alone in Jakarta.

When I used to go to school's retreat...cannot sleep in the night, making noises with friends...

When I used to go supper at fongseng during semester 1...then just sat in Amphitheater waiting for the sun rise.

When I came back from any PINUS event (DnD, NUANSA, and just now...Angklung performance)

When I used to go back to my hostel alone...walking...smelling the fragrance of the night.

CNY

2011-01-23T03:11:00.002+08:00

What's upcoming plan for CNY? rite...cook sausage and nugget!!

Older -> better?

2011-01-20T01:08:00.001+08:00

Is it true that as we grow older, we become better? I am feeling deteriorating...

Talk and Share

2011-01-20T00:52:00.001+08:00

Ok....sometimes I really am sassy. I feel better after I talk with friends and people.

Had a great chatting time with an amazzinnnggg friend of mine. Worth every single sleep time.

Passion Skills Opportunity

2011-01-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

Passion and opportunity without skills is useless.
Passion and skills without opportunity is wasted.
Skills and opportunity without passion is lifeless.

Passion meeting skills meeting opportunity is the goal of every soul in the world. (or which is why there are unsuccessful people and unhappy successful people or any combination of both)

Capability

2011-01-14T02:07:00.001+08:00

Am I a capable person?

I myself cannot tell the answer.

At work

2011-01-11T01:03:00.001+08:00

It hurts me to write this but...sometimes I feel I did not do as expected at work. I don't know why sometimes I always have this blurriness and do things wrongly. Very stupid. Feel so emo. I also sometimes made bad decision.

ARGHHH...just feel so emo when I did mistakes.

shit shit

2011-01-07T06:14:00.002+08:00

When I reflect my achievement, skills, and capability, and I compare it with what others have...I feel like shit. A big shit. Damned...

The spark is lit up

2011-01-05T16:44:00.002+08:00

My interest is piqued. My passion is sparked up again!

The time has come!!

Money

2011-01-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

Money is important but it is NOT everything.

Money may bring welfare but certainly it is NOT the main source of happiness.

As I grow older I am beginning to understand the meaning of the statement.

It's 31st December 2010

2010-12-31T04:18:00.007+08:00

Everyone...it's 31st of December 2010.

It's the last day of the month.

It's the last day of the year.

It's the last day of the decades.

Considering all these things suddenly there's a deeper meaning of the date to me. It's all about reflections. What have I done for the month, for the year, and for the decade.

Last day of the Month
December has always been a great month every year. It usually marks the end of exams period for NUS students. All intl students begin to pack away their stuffs to go back to their home country. December is also a great month because it's Christmas time! Gotta admit it, even though not all people are Christians, everybody enjoys Christmas. It could be due to the festive season or holiday season feeling in the air. It could be due to Santa and his presents. Or it could be due to the songs and carols as well as all the discounts and end year promotions the store are giving.

For me the joy of Christmas this year is as great as ever. Maybe even more. I gave myself PS3 as a present. I went out to CBD areas in Singapore to take fabulous Xmas decor photos. I am taking 10 days leave and went back home to celebrate Christmas and New Year with family. On the last day of December me and my famz are planning to do a BBQ. And I am planning to watch fireworks nearing midnight. Pretty cool stuff to do to end the year huh? Overall I am satisfied with Christmas this year.

Last day of the Year
Being the last day of the year, we could reflect on many things that happen during 2010. First half of the year I was still a student in NUS. A final semester student to be precise. Rushing FYPs, overwhelmed by modules (since I took 4 tech electives), First and last DnD in NUS (during which our Supperclub group made a finale performance), and Raffles supper for almost every night filled up Semester 8 agenda. I was pretty happy that I got a chance to do a last performance (I dreamed to do a last performance for graduation for a long time. I thought that it was romantic and memorable) in NUS during ECE Graduation Celebration. I did the drum, Aldo did the bass, Kassim and Din did the guitars. We pretty much rocked the night!! Food was good and everybody was having a good time. Around 3 days post celebration, we had our Commencement. As I told in my entry before, everything went well and smooth during the commencement. 7 July 2010 was a good noon.

Second half of the year was filled with job hunting and my work in ST. My only working experience so far is as an intern in Apple Inc which I felt okay. Working in the current company feels hectic and stressful to me. It's a totally different experience compared to Apple Inc. (yeah I know the job title and desc are different as well). I can say it presents me a new side and a new image of what 'working' is. First 1-2 months were easy but the rest 4 months I went through with some hardships. The pay was good though. There are a few instances during which I am thinking to look for a new job and thus a new career. But I always tell myself to bear and ask myself what I can do to improve my job satisfaction. My lesson in 2010 was 'Not to give up when any challenge presents itself and to always look for any possible solution to a problem'. I am trying to practice this lesson to my current 'test'. (To all readers reading this, please bear in mind that all these are my own personal opinion and personal experience with the company. With all respect all the opinions are not meant to present any sort of image intentionally or unintentionally)

Last day of the Decade
Actually I only began to realize that 31st Dec 2010 is the last day of the decade from a facebook status of my friend. This was what deepens the meaning of today for me and thus inspires me to write this entry. So many things happened during this decade. My junior high school, senior high school, and university were all done in this decade. Well that includes my puberty and my transition for kid->teenager->adolescence. I was 12 years in the beginning of 2000 and now I am 22 (um...yeah that was so random). A few love interests, crushes, and 1 or 2 open relationship. I was more adventurous when I was younger compared to now. How I miss teen. I was so childish back then...and I still am now! Some things never change although it's a different kind of childish-ness of course. I now think about my future, career, and soulmate in a different way. It's now different how I treat, think, and view my parents. I guess the turning point was when I joined the Superteen camp after Senior High School. It was a camp in Puncak (highland area). Supervised by Ernest Wong, it the purpose of the camp is to boost your motivation, self-esteem, and self-confidence. Yeah I was lacking on those things and again I still am. I could not fully amend the problem but at least I could reduce it to manageable level. Hm...what else?

Well that's 31st December 2010 for me 8)

PS: if there's one promise I have not fulfilled by this end of month, it must be the promise to make an entry once a day until Christmas day. Well...can't help it I guess...delay and postpone will all be weighted to tight work schedule. *happy*

Merry Christmas!!

2010-12-25T04:21:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas 25 December 2010 everyone!

Have yourself a joyful Christmas this year!!

Christmas Eve

2010-12-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

So....What do I do on Xmas Eve?

Church.

Eat.

Games.

Watching Carols on TV.

Sleep.

Nothing too memorable in this Xmas Eve. Too bad...but at least I went to church on Xmas eve. Something new compared to previous Xmas (I went to church on Xmas day itself).

Xmas in indo Day 1

2010-12-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

Arrived at Soekarno-Hatta International Airport at around 11am.

Ate at Ayam Penyet Bu Kris and went back home afterward.

Then went to barber and cut hair short to prepare for passport photo.

Passport photo cancelled today due to too many people queued up already.

Rested for a while before continued to go to airport again. This time to pick up dad.

On the way home, went to Emporium and ate Bakmi Gajah Mada.

Back at home, got a good rest, played PS3 then slept.

First day of Xmas holz in Jakarta ended up well!

Last day in Singapore for 2010

2010-12-21T02:10:00.000+08:00

Puahh...still cannot get off frm work on time. Nevertheless, getting off sooner and sooner each time.

Then go to AMK Hub to check on game shop. Still....qisahn and funzsquare are the cheapest (strange though...they are located at Orchard. Shud be more expensive rite?)

Going for a stroll in AMK hub. Go to spec shop, watch shop, and food stalls. After 9 got sushi disc!! So ate away 2 sets of Salmon Sushi, 1 set California Maki, and 1 set of Salmon maki. Not very tasty IMO. The sushi stall was Niwa Sushi. Somehow the soy sauce felt too strong for me.

Then went back home, pack2, browse, blog, and sleep. Tomorrow got morning flight!

20 Dec 2010

2010-12-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

2 days before my going back to Indonesia!

5 days before xmas!

10 days before new year!

511200 minutes of 2010 has been passed!

Still at Orchard

2010-12-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

My photo hunt at Orchard has not ended. I dunno when it will...since in Orchard there are a lotssss of great objects to capture.

Today I am strolling around Scape and Cineleisure area.

PS: Takoyaki at ION was having long queue! So I went to Taka's.
$6.8 = 8pcs in Ion
$6.9 = 9pcs in Taka ($2.3 for 3!)

Not 10 days anymore

2010-12-17T13:32:00.002+08:00

Got nauseous today plus headache plus flu at and after work today. I even puke in the street. How fucked up is that!

In the end I dun think I do the 10days of straight work...but I still do in total 9 days of work...shit.

Fun Things about work?

2010-12-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Ok....things about to get fun in work. I need to work 10 straight days in a row.

Each day is 12hrs...How is it not amazing?

Photo Hunt @DhobbyGhaut_14122010

2010-12-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

Next one is Dhobby Ghaut. Same like yesterday. I got off frm office late and ate KFC for dinner. Damn...I starting to hate KFC.

Anyway not much to photograph in Dhobby Ghaut (or I don't look hard enough)...

Photo Hunt @Orchard_13122010

2010-12-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

Today I got off late from office. Really delay all my activities afterward including dinner and photo hunting.

Photo hunting in Orchard is really fun. There are a bunch of people who do the same so you won't be singled out for being the only busy photographer in the area. Many beautiful objects and decorations that make a good model. I was here until 11.30 before taking 77 to home. Walking in Orchard alone in the night is also quite fun. Can feel the melancholic atmosphere while at the same time peacefulness with all the xmas decorations.

Well...picture speaks a thousand words.

The next state in working

2010-12-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

Somehow...I am start to accepting my job. Reducing level of rants and complaints and start facing problem with (i hope) smiley face.

I believe it's partly because I start to get used to my job. But still...there are too many things that I need to learn.hope that all the hardships and challenge here will allow me to start the next job in a better state.

Post Semester 8

2010-12-09T15:45:00.009+08:00

This is gonna be the last chapter in the Post Semester series. My last chapter in NUS also.

Semester 8 pretty much continues what semester 7 left. I continue to do all the FYP stuff. In this semester I have 4 tech elective modules (which killing me quite well). EE2013, EE4415, EE4401, EE4411. EE2013 is about Matlab. First half of this module is about learning matlab. Pretty basic I would say. Nothing much. The second half is learning VI hardware design from National Instrument. This program is a software that bridges engineering hardware to be controlled by computer. One example was we learnt how to input an analog noise into a computer then digitally filtered it then output the analog sound again as a cleaner sound on a certain frequency. EE4415 is about digital design. It somewhat feels like 2006. The circuit design part in the end is quite challenging. EE4401 is about optometry. It is more about Physics. Take this if you're good with EE2011 or EE2004. EE4411 is somewhat like EE2004. More about understanding and memorizing. It is a semiconductor module. Lucky I got take this module because I somehow ended up in semicon company.

FYP was getting busier and busier. Everybody starts to take their FYPs seriously. Unlike first sem during which they still have chance to crap and play around with examiners and supervisors. For me, I had 2 CAs with huge percentage (30% and 40%). One memorable thing about FYP is that my prof threw away my paper right after I handed to him. Yes...that means he threw it right in front of my eyes. Not to the dustbin though (fortunately). He just threw it on the table behind him. Pretty infuriating for me since the way he threw it was like the way people threw useless things. I went through a bit of difficulty during my presentation with my examiner but everything went well in the end. A- for my FYP. It makes me quite glad and satisfied. I definitely gave some efforts to do my FYP but when I reviewed it again, I did not feel that I did something worth for people to look at.

I am getting more used to living in RVR. To the point that I am glad I left PGP. It's a brand new living experience. Not so bad at all. Especially with every facilities are close to your place. One thing that I missed is the bus stop. I lost the versatility to go places that I usually go. That includes Bugis, Orchard, Suntec and many others. Not totally 'lost' though. The nearest busstop to RVR only offers you 151 and 95. Going a bit further across the soccer fields allow you more choice of buses. But yeah....it's really a long way to walk. I began loving Subway half a year back. Meatball marinara is my favourite. It will always be :). Well the preference for subway is also partly because I do not have much alternatives to eat.

After all academic stuffs were through, it's time for job hunting. I can consider that I got my job quite fast. And it only takes 1 interview to get in. Pretty lucky I was. I know job hunting is not easy for everyone. Luck may count in...that's a fact. Done with job hunting, I prepared myself for Graduation Ceremony. 7 July 2010. It surely was one of the best day of my life. Everything went smoothly for graduation. People laughing happily, photo taking everywhere, friends and families were together. Simply the day everyone was looking forward to.

So that ends NUS for me academically (I still go there every now and then just for a friendly visit or for a taste of its canteen food). Really really great and happening 4 years for me. And this final post ends the series of Post semester entries.

*Not entirely comprehensive by the time of publishing but amendment will be made soon*

Carols of Christmas

2010-12-06T00:23:00.001+08:00

I might have posted this last year but I feel like posting it again.

Can't really emphasize more how I love Christmas songs and carols.

I listened to them not in the beginning of christmas or december. Not even in November.

I listened to them starting from even last christmas was over! (meaning January dude!!)

Best is still Have yourself a merry little christmas. Somehow melancholic but does not really have a sad theme in its lyric. The lyrics give a calming and peace feeling instead.

Christmas Song seconded the chart.

Others follow such as Let it Snow, Winter Wonderland, Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer.

Classic tune like Hark the Herald Angels Sing, Silent Night, O Holy Night, Santa Claus is coming to Town still fill the joy.

New addition in this 2010 is All I want for christmas is you from Mariah Carey. I dunno that this tune is so catchy and the lyrics are romantic. Second is I'll be home for christmas. Again sweet lyrics and melody. And I will really be home for christmas this year!! Last is Last Christmas. Not so catchy, not so sad, but enjoyable. The tunes feel familiar in my ear. I believe I had heard it before somewhere.

Finally Auld Lang Syne always end december with joy, happiness, sadness, regrets, memories, wishes, and hopes :)

Routine

2010-12-05T13:14:00.002+08:00

Somehow I always miss my routine. Be it routines that I love or I hate.

I miss boarding bus to HarborFront then take MRT to Dhobby Ghaut and changes MRT to Yio Chu Kang to go to workplace at Apple Inc. every morning when I was IA.

I miss nice Chicken Rice stall that I always eat before I came home from Apple.

I miss going Supper almost every night when I stayed in RVR.

I miss gaming every night (or morning) when I was in year 1.

I miss jamming out with my band every Wednesday to prepare for Friday Night's show at Munchie Monkey.

I am hating my taxing routine when I did it but when I don't do it anymore, there's always a reminiscing feeling.

Great Outing Day!!

2010-12-04T12:09:00.000+08:00

Today is a very great outing day to me. Totally concludes weekend nicely.

So...we (me, mike kho, citra, hary, jess, cindy lawer and her friends) started out by going to Roland Restaurant near Marine Parade to eat Chili Crab. Finding the place would be a lil bit of challenge for a first-timer. The food there was great. Not so expensive for a restaurant-class place. We ordered like...3-4 main menu and some dim sums. All and all it cost 25 dolars per person.

Then we go for a stroll around Marine Parade mall and nearby neighborhood market. Not much things during the stroll....just chit-chat and drinks. Next stop is cycling time! I wasn't really enthusiastic with cycling at first but it turned out to be a nice activity after all! Enjoying the breeze, the view, all the while cycling relaxedly on the road. Could do a little chit chat also if you have a partner to cycle with.

After around 2 hours of cycling we decided to go to McD to sat and enjoyed a cup of coffee. Around 1 hour of sitting down, we are revitalized enough to head on the next destination: Dinner!

It was Ayam Penyet initially but we changed to a Noodle House at Bugis area. The house' specialty noodle there cost 5 or 6 dollars depending on the size. Coupled with Teh Peng and 1.5 dollars, they made a pretty fulfilling dinner. The noodle tasted good too. Since we were in Bugis, Mike and Citra wanted to go to arcade to play some games. I never know Bugis has such a good arcade place. There are wide variety of games. Even the LANshop is great and cheap. $15 for full-day rate on weekdays ($25 on weekend). Cool dark place, comfy chair, gaming-specialized gear. Basically everything that will attract a gamer.

Our final stop is Reddot Brewhouse Cafe at Dempsey Road. This is where Adi of Regu A having his regular performance form 11pm-1am. Adi has been inviting me to come for many times but unfortunately I couldn't come for various reasons. This night, I got mood and company to watch his performance so I just went. In Reddot we met G11 guys. Looks like they were celebrating their anniversary of around 8-9 years as G11. Good night, Good drink, Good song pretty much sum it all. This day I had a good day and this night I had a good night!

Christmas Photo Hunting!

2010-12-03T12:05:00.000+08:00

Personally I think Singapore is one of the best place to spend christmas in. There are a lot of fabulous christmas decoration in singapore. I've been making promises (and plans) to have a spare time to photograph all great Xmas decor in Singapore for 2010. Anyone joining?

My job

2010-12-02T16:47:00.001+08:00

Starting to lose passion on job. Starting to feel bored. How?

Counting Christmas :D

2010-12-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

Feeling like starting a new entry a day to count all these days before christmas!!!!

Sense of Security

2010-11-27T11:16:00.001+08:00

It's too bad that...I still have this sense of security....that my parents will still support me.

Really make me feels I am not matured yet.

Post Semester 7

2010-11-07T01:43:00.004+08:00

Wow wow wow...Semester 7.

I started semester 7 with full of emoness. That this was my final year in NUS gave a mixed feeling of happiness and emo-ness. Some things that mark my final year in NUS were CCA, FYP, and RVR. I left all my CCAs this semester onwards. I wanted to start focusing on modules and FYPs. I know I was at border line and I really don't want to get low score and fell to no honours band. So I hesitately left all my CCAs and activities. Surprisingly it didn't really give me much boredom and it gave me more time to do things with my friends. Well...not really ALL activities were gone. I still had NUANSA.

NUANSA is PINUS annual production. I joined NUANSA since I was in year 1, invited by Anggi and Adi. This year's NUANSA was hectic and rushed up (...as always...). Everything was last minute. I think I never had much preparation for any NUANSA. This year NUANSA presented more challenge than previous ones in terms of songs quantity as well as quality. There are more people to work with thus good teamwork is critical. Nevertheless, despite all the hardships, it went well as it always has been. It was a BlAst! The recording session afterward also gave me more knowledge and experience about professional recording in general. Honestly I am not so satisfied with the results. I figured out much incompetencies and amateur-ish sonic quality of my own beat. I tried to see the positive side...all these only mean that I still have a lot rooms for improvement.

Module and FYP-wise...Semester 7 presented the same challenge in terms of module. I took mostly EE modules to clear my breadth. One CS module that was very fun, CS3240. I began to think that I should start a career in Gaming and Graphic Design. Sadly I didn't score so well for this module although I had an interest in it. One last module was japanese language. Another fun module that I took. Improved my japanese relatively a lot (I only know Katakana to begin with). The addition of FYP just improved the module challenge. It is a good thing that I lost all my CCAs. Now I could allocate those CCA time to FYP. I picked interactive game design for my FYP so my FYP was mostly about game programming. Doubled with the CS3240, now I have more idea about what a game is and how it works. When you really understand the whole things about it, it is very interesting. But I have to admit the learning curve was not easy. I have to start learning a new programming language and getting myself used to new framework and algorithm. Overall I am OK with it.

Next I have RVR. Yeah...this sem I no longer stayed in PGP due to stupid mistake. I had just enough points to cover PGP point barrier but I slipped when I didn't click submit twice for the application. Really guys...have to learn from this mistake. Remember that there is a confirmation page that you have to submit after you submit your credentials and application!! I had a bad impression of staying at RVR at first but after a while, I started to feel more comfortable living there. RVR is in close proximity to many places. Raffles Hall for supper, UHWC for medical problem, YIH for CCA and printing service, and MPSH for sports just to name a few. Moreover I got good companies to hang out with and supper together every night. Suddenly life in RVR is much more fun than ever.

Overall I can say semester 7 has been nice and fruitful semester :)

Post Semester 6

2010-10-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

I delayed this post for much too long already so should start to post soon.

So....semester 6. What I had in this semester? The main thing is IA or Industrial Attachment. I was quite lucky to get an internship at Apple Inc. Honestly it is quite a good working place there. At least I have a normal working hours, nice office, nice macbook pro, etc. I also like the work although I had to learn everything from the start. My work is more about creating website to display a compiled report for those managers. Definitely not those works that people always said about IA (you know...making coffee, buy breakfast, blah). For now I think this suits me quite well. I love the IT hardware, internet connection, and multimedia nature of the job although I know this kind of job would not pay so much even for full-timer.

IA takes up much of my time and energy, but still I had to take 2 more modules in NUS to make up 20MCs per semester requirement. I took HR2002 and EE3001. Both are basically....crap. I can hardly understand fully what HR2002 is telling about. To me it's just telling about how organization works, how to build a good rapport with colleagues, all those are pretty common sense. EE3001 also was a crap. This module requires us to develop a business plan that involves creating a new device. We have to create a technical spec, a marketing plan, and a financial plan. We also have to present this to a board of lecturers. The hard part for the team was to brainstorm a new unprecedented device because it will be the foundation of what we are doing next. We finally settled down on a multi-functional handphone which has a virtual keyboard and projector built into it. Next thing was to compile up tech specs which we can copy over from various websites. I was not really involved in marketing and financial part so I did not much about this. (Well....I did join in a bit in one meeting for financial part. They made up some numbers in calculating cost and revenue.) My team was comprised of 8 people including me (yes...freaking a lot for a team). There were Foo, Ragha, me, Aldo, Wendy, Hassham, Xinying, and Huiying. For me, the most contributing members were Foo and Ragha. The rest of us were all exhausted due to IA and did not have much spirit to continue meeting.

I still joined CBLC and CAC for CCA. Not as active as before though. I didn't join much big events in CBLC. Just continuing doing my usual duty. CAC was quite memorable for me in this semester. My last gig in CAC was for a grand CACTUS event in RP. Stages, stardom, band...ahh~...couldn't say more about how good those were. Good thing must end grand and memorable to me to give a nostalgic feeling whenever we reminisce about it. Thanks CAC friends...you all have been a good band mates to me. Thanks for being able to stand my unpunctuality as well as blurness. I learnt a lot about music and band from you guys. Thanks to Aldo...great Indo friend in the club for 3 years (Last gig were cool man...and we're pulling that off together!).

Oh and one more thing. I did not get my stay at PGP next semester. I had enough points but sadly I made a small (but end up huge) mistake when submitting the application form. Cannot have 4 years in PGP T_T. Well....RVR did give me a brand new experience and unforgettable memory though :)

Money vs. ...

2010-10-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

That money is not as important as friends, families, and mate is blatantly obvious.

But not until you experience it yourself that you can fully comprehend and thus appreciate the depth of the statement.

---------------------------

Now we have come to the period where friendship can last as easily as it can fade.

We are busy with our own things, stuffs, work, job, etc.

We are allowed less time together while granted more space to build our individual barrier.

We are given more capability of being independent which is beneficial as well as (covertly) detrimental.

You know where I am going with all these philosophical shit.

...

which is why I don't even need to finish the entry...

Happy-Sad Work Stories...

2010-10-01T01:57:00.001+08:00

think I need to open a new blog regarding happy-sad working stories. Would be lovely if can ask any working people to join and share their happy and sad work stories.

In the mean time, Got some delayed blog entries I need to post before they become 'expired'.

I am half-girl?

2010-09-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

Somehow I feel that I have girls' trait in me. One of them is mood swing.

Dunno why can have sudden mood drop or mood high. Maybe it can also mean i have Bipolar Disorder?

hm....suddenly dunno what to write anymore....

*bleh

Arggghhhh work work work

2010-09-17T00:56:00.002+08:00

I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore
I don't want to work anymore

To work is iike....you're damn starving but there's only grass as far as eye can see.

One Piece FC!

2010-09-09T02:46:00.003+08:00

Recently interested in collecting small one piece figures...

dunno the interest will last or just a fleeting impulse.

A little change abt commenting in my blog

2010-08-16T04:44:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, a little update in my blog. Now I limit those people who can comment to those who own a google account. This restriction is due to a lot of random comments spamming some of my post and thus I keep getting some stupid notifs in my email.

when I get bored...

2010-07-28T03:14:00.011+08:00

Ok...I am currently in my off days of working. I am currently working shift at ST so effectively I will be working half days of the month. I realize that though off days give you rest and time to do those stuffs you do not manage to do in working days, they also give you boredom. Well...not only these off days actually. Working in general gives me boredom because of the routine. Unlike school which has homework and quizzes and exams which lead us to doing homework or study at home, there is really nothing in particular to do when you're home. Probably just rest, chat with friends, or do laundry. Here I am starting to realize the importance of hobby. Having a hobby let us to have something to do, something to look forward to, something to pursue. Music? Photography? Gaming? Compter and Gadget?

Me myself currently loves home decor and design. I am trying to make my room better than ever. I begin to adore Ikea products. I love their simple but nice designs. It's just a little tight on budget and space for me. By space, I mean walls. Room space itself does not give me much difficulty, only a little challenge that is fun to overcome. Choosing the right product at the right size only adds up the joy for me. Walls on the other hand is a big obstacle. I live in a rented HDB (HDB is just like apartment in Singapore for those uninformed) and I am not allowed to drill the wall while drilling wall can provide a heap of additional space. Mirror, notice board, and shelftop is just a few stuffs that can be added by drilling the wall.

Now say you 'have pursued' your hobby or you are currently bored with all your hobbies...what to do? We are back to state of boredom where everything feels empty because we have nothing to look forward to. This where the family kicks in. I ever wondered why we even need to start a family or even to have a child. Now I think I found the answer. Family gives us a hope. It gives us an incentive to keep living and achieve more things in life. Having a wife and children means we have people to take care and to love. They can fill our life with joy (provided ur wife is not a spender/party kind or ur kids dun do drug of course) and they can become companies we can put our 100% trust in.

You have a wonderful wife. She does not cheat on you, neither do you cheat on her. You guys do not argue very much and very supportive of each other. Your kids grow just like what you hope them to be (or at least...they finish university). A very ideal scenario indeed (don't worry...it's achievable). Let's use this scenario to move on into the next idea. Now when you achieve what you need to achieve, have a good job to sustain your family, and your family lives happily ever after...what next? Is it so called the point where you have achieved everything? Where you are ready to enter heaven/hell gate whenever Death calls you? Or will you again fall into the state of life boredom? Where you achieve all your goals and suddenly life begins to feel dull?

At this point, you must be in your forties, fifties, or sixties. I am not at that age ranges yet so I can't really give much comment but I doubt you will feel this kind of 'boredom' as when you were twenties or thirties. From observing those elder people, what I can pick up is that those elder tend to go for peace. They hardly want to achieve anything grand. They just want to have a peace in themselves, to have a company to live the rest of their lives, to reminisce the past, to laugh and regret and every little good and bad things they did in the past. Thinking of all these I begin to understand the behavior and conduct of elder people. And I think company is very important when we are at this stage of life. Living alone and dying alone is painful.

Thinking too far ahead and observing human's life...I am wondering whether human lives just to achieve things and to make them feel life is meaningful because they have achieved something? Because actually everything that we achieve will eventually perish. None of them is going with us to heaven or hell. Not even our body is going with us. (all this talk works if you believe that soul, heaven, and hell do exist). With this thought....now I understand why some people want to carve their names in history. They want to leave something so that their achievement can be remembered by the rest of the world thus it would not go into waste. For those who can carve their names in history, good for them. But what about the rest of us? Why do we need to live? Undergo suffering and happiness? And even accumulate sins that will risk us to go into hell? If we know everything will eventually conclude to nothingness....isn't it better for us to not exist or die from the start? Rather than live and risk ourselves to suffer and sin?

when I get bored all these stupid thought come....
when I get bored I dunno what to do thus I blog...
I know after a good night sleep I will be alrite...
I know after a good night sleep I will escape this state of limbo.

PS: edited some parts to make it more reader-friendly. (yeah...I hate my own choice of words whenever I re-read my entry.)

I thought there was not enough space but...

2010-07-19T04:14:00.002+08:00

I came across a stranger's facebook and I found this in her "write something about yourself" box:

There are only three types of people; those who have found God and serve him; those who have not found God and seek him, and those who live not seeking, or finding him. The first are rational and happy; the second unhappy and rational, and the third

At first I thought she had not finished her whole sentence because there's not enough writing space in the box but looking at the last sentence once more and I had my forehead-slapping moment.

I hope she didn't mean to write irrational and unhappy. I am still wondering about the possibility of it being unfinished sentence.

Graduation

2010-06-29T04:41:00.002+08:00

Graduation makes me both happy and sad.

Graduation means both achievement and separation for me. Being able to graduate from something means that you have gone through a learning process and succeed. But you will also be separated from that thing you graduate and there is definitely some feel of loss and yearning. Achievement is happy. Separation is sad.

This time around I will graduate from university or to be exact...from Academical Education (if I dun plan to take MBa). The feel is kind of different from the usual graduation feel. Here I will not only part with my friends (which is saddening enough) but also from education, something that has been with me for the past 15-16years. From now onward I will go through a different kind of learning process. Those that are more practical rather than academical. Those that require me to be more driven internally rather than externally to succeed. I can't say I really love academics but being with something for a long time (even that which you don't like) definitely develops a bond which you yearn.

PS: I am listening to Vitamin C - Graduation Song right now so pardon the emo-ness.

Spiderman's philosophy

2010-06-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

With great power comes great responsibility.

With some income comes SOME expense.

Well at 1 side u're happy bcoz u finally graduate and u're about to work soon thus earning some money. But then the expenses that comes with it are also great. Taxes, living cost, CPF for some, loan, etc. Not that it's unexpected...but when the calculation is done, it pains the heart a bit.

This is a test entry from Blogo

2010-05-20T16:04:00.001+08:00

Blogo test entry.

Stop and Muse

2010-05-18T04:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I do need to think it over.

What are my goals?

What do I really want in life?

What do I really need?

I hope I've been walking in the correct path....

NUS Food I am gonna miss

2010-05-18T01:15:00.002+08:00

Engin:

Dilly's:

-Potato Curry Puff

Western:

-Chicken Chop

-Chicken Baked Pasta

Indo Panggang:

-Grilled Chicken set

-Grilled Chicken Chop set

Drink Stall:

-Teh Peng

Biz:

Mid-Eastern Food:

-Kebab

Western:

-Fish and Chip

-Chicken Cutlet

Arts:

Japanese:

-Unagi Chicken Tamagoni Set

Old Western (from before The Deck was revamped):

-Some chicken skin set

Science:

Western Food:

-Fish and Chips

Chicken Rice Stall:

-Lemon Chicken Rice

YIH:

-Toast Set

PGP:

Foodgle Drink Stall:

-Caramel Coffee

-Teh Peng

Old Canteen Drink Stall:

-Nescafe ice

Life of a Singaporean

2010-05-12T20:28:00.001+08:00

This one I got frm my friend la. Dunno he got from where. A lil' bit on the bitter side but it's true!

I am Ong Ah Bee living in Kampong Chai Chee
Life used to be simple and HAPPY
I worked hard in my STUDIES
I learned A-B-C, and everything from 1, 2, and 3
Primary school was quite easy I passed PALE.

Then I went to SECONDARY
The subjects include History, Geography,
Physics, Biology and CHEMISTRY
After OF levels I went to POLY
I was quite LUCKY

This is a small humid tropical COUNTRY
Surrounded by unknown potential ENEMIES
Boys turned 18 must go to ARMY.
After that we must continue our Studies
The girls can just sit back, relax, and watch TV
They come to this world only to "Chia Liao Bi"

No one lives on free meals or depends on CHARITY
I had no money to go to University
So I went to work at a FACTORY
Trying to earn a little lousy SALARY
After CPF and INCOME TAX, I have just enough money to buy ROTI and ride in MRT

Colleagues at work used to be FRIENDLY.
Always treat me to tea and COFFEE
Somehow they turned FISHY
Passing bad remarks about me
Telling everybody I am LAZY.

My bosses show me no SYMPATHY
Mumbling over my shoulder daily
"HURRY, HURRY and HURRY !"
Accusing me of always trying to get MC
But my sickness was due to over stretch OT
Going home after midnight by TAXI and They pay me only bus fee

I park-tor and became STEADY
Finally had to MARRY
I lost money holding Wedding Dinner PARTY
Cheeky friends donating only cheap PANTY
After marriage, nothing was EASY

In one year, I became DADDY
I can't support my family and our BABY
Being tied down for life to repay HDB
and rising monthly utilities to PUB
My bank account has NO MONEY
POSB balance is almost EMPTY
DBS wants to charge me EXTRA FEE

Insisting that "Nothing is FREE!"

So I moonlight as KARANG GUNI
Many times I want to jump into the sea to MATI
But that is not EASY
My wife cries: "Who is going to support me and our BABY?"
So I can't MATI

I went to seek assistance from the MP
His reply was simple and easy:
"Vote for me, vote for me, vote for me"
He never tell me any convincing Policy
My dear friends, can you please help Ong Ah Bee

puppy love

2010-05-10T19:21:00.001+08:00

Ahhh.....so that's what they really meant about puppy love...

sweet and stupid :)

dreams dreams dreams

2010-05-09T16:52:00.002+08:00

These few days lately my dreams are about graduation, CAP score, exams, and daily life in NUS. I wonder why.

Consciously I dun think of academic again after exams. Maybe they were all my sub-conscious thought?

I look forward

2010-05-02T12:31:00.002+08:00

born

kindergarten

primary school

junior high

senior high

...

university

work

married

children

be prosperous

die

...

is that it? I studied and worked to eventually die? WTH...

I look back

2010-04-22T03:16:00.002+08:00

NUS year 1 2006/2007

NUS year 2 2007/2008

NUS year 3 2008/2009

NUS yaer 4 2009/2010

...

Is it me? Is it you? Is it a love-hate relationship?

And I am trying not to be superstitious but....

And I am trying to think it was just me and my faults but....

...

Monday, Apri19 2010

2010-04-19T06:34:00.002+08:00

First week of reading week.

The third day after the last week of university's semester term (count frm Sat.).

The third day after the 'week' was over.

One or two years back, I must have called last week (and 1-2weeks before) a hellish one considering the amount of workloads and submissions I I had to do. But now that I have overcome the worst a few times, somehow I did not whine with the hardships. Quiz? Check. Project submission? Check. FYP presentation? Check. Lab submission? Well it should be checked but somehow my GA could not find my lab report so I just have to wait and see.

Now what else do we have? Right...exams. Three exams. 30th of April, 4th of May, 6th of May. The first started two weeks away from now so here I am still relaxed enjoying my days with slack. Just glad that everything's more or less over. Just trying to breathe in some fresh air before fueling up again for exams. Just trying to appreciate how days pass without any stresses or obligation in mind. Days like these are sooooo expensive and rare. I doubt I am gonna get anymore of these when I worked later on.

So what did I do on weekend? Let's start from Friday...where all these happiness and freedom began. Starting a day in relaxing manner, I went to school at around 1 pm and had lunch in Engine canteen. Then spent a few hours on project report before finally submitting it to the GA at 5. I went home to RVR to rest for a while, then had dinner with my friends, and chilled out in Munchie Monkey watching Guitar crub's GTV (Great performance guys! woo). Initially I just planned to watch for a few minutes then leave but somehow the atmosphere was just nice that I couldn't leave my seat before everyone's packing up.

On Saturday...nothing much to do in the day. I skipped lunch and slacked in my room, browsing and listening to music. I called M1 service to check my 3G data plan connection which kept getting error since I signed up the plan. Thank God finally it worked. I can now browse happily where there is no Wi-Fi connection. Yay!! I spent most of the evening and night in PGP, visiting some spots there for food, haha. First BBQ pit, I had DnD barbeque treat there. Then my sister's bdae treat, I had KFC's mashed potato there. Off then I went to supperhouse with Danny and Vincent. Gulped a cup of milo while having a little chat. Lastly a year 1's bdae party. I didnt really know this year 1 guy so I kinda hesitate to come but since Danny and Vincent were going, I just followed them. Had a nice bdae cake there. Finally I left PGP at around 1 or so and walked all the way to RVR using A2 route.

On Sunday, I woked up on a call by Pras. I got him and Rudy in my room since they said they needed my macbook's garageband for recording. I myself did laundry (finally...after 2-3weeks). Then I went swimming with William and Thomas. I had my dinner at West Coast Plaza. Yong Tau Foo's there quite good. I am surprised the auntie is an Indonesian, she said she's from Tanjung Pinang (wherever that is..>,<). Bought 3 Tao Kae Noi rasa Spicy!! Woo..that really showed my love to this Japanese Seaweed snack, didn't it? hahaha then I went back to RVR and got some sleep.

RVR and PGP in a nutshell.

2010-04-19T06:07:00.005+08:00

Personal opinion about two hostels in NUS, namely PGPR (Prince George's Park Residence) and RVR (Ridge View Residence). The author has lived for 3 years in PGPR and 1 year in RVR. All the pros and cons are summarized below.

RVR:

pro:

- 3mins away from UHWC

- 3mins away from SRC/MPSH/swimming pool

- 7mins away from Raffles Hall Supper

- 7mins away from YIH/CBLC

- 15mins away from Engineering and Science (on foot)

- Cheers is 24hrs

- Subway, Yakun Kaya, Old Chang Kee

- Free laundry, 20cents/30mins dryer

- amphitheatre for emo2, lovey-dovey time

cons:

- unpractical door lock system

- lizards, bugs...

PGPR:

pro:

- more companions and friends

- AC-ed student lounges

- food stalls on weekend

- BBQ pit?

- more bathrooms and toilets

- Gym within PGP

cons:

- far from anywhere

- no swimming pools

- Gym is not free

- expensive laundry

Sem 8, week 12

2010-04-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

12 Apr - Matlab quiz, EE4401 term paper submission

13Apr - prepare videos for FYP presentation, EE4401 lab do

14Apr - FYP presentation, EE4401 lab2

15Apr - EE4415 project prepare

16Apr - EE4415 Project submission

now that 1st draft is gone....

2010-04-07T02:55:00.002+08:00

what left is:

7apr - CA3 presentation, 3-3.30pm, ppt

9apr - 4401 research paper, LED

12apr - 2013 quiz, close book, labview, concept

14apr - CA4 presentation, 4401 lab 2 submission

16apr - 4415 project submit

3 days before thesis submission

2010-04-03T03:15:00.002+08:00

kancheong!

about 70% finished overall.

re-structure and organize everything.

adding pictures and diagrams.

starting the reference and table of contents.

start writing technical paper?

4 Days before FYP

2010-04-02T23:43:00.001+08:00

Roughly finish first part.

Begin background on second part.

Re-arrange logic for second part.

MUST FINISH WHOLE STRUCTURE AND WORDS TODAY.

5 Days Before Thesis Submission

2010-04-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

Begin on the background for part 1.

Copy and edit the main content for part 1.

Re-arrange Background and main content to follow logic.

6 Days Before Thesis Submission

2010-03-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

Done the main content about Softimage XSI.

Done the acknowledgement.

Start doing the main task in 2nd part.

Start doing introduction and abstract?

7 Days Before Thesis Submission

2010-03-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

Begin the Main Content.

Start Writing the Modelling step.

Start Writing the Texturing step.

8 days before FYP Thesis 1st draft submission

2010-03-29T02:59:00.001+08:00

I opened text editor and started to write the title of my FYP.

I read out the guideline to properly write my thesis.

Manga I love reading

2010-03-21T19:20:00.003+08:00

Ongoing:

Naruto:

-ninja always fascinates me. And now this is like ninja + dragon ball.

One Piece:

-Eichiro Oda rocks! It's been 500+ chapters but they're still like in the mid of their journey.

Full Metal Alchemist:

-It has science and politics gimmick. Cool!

D.Gray Man:

-Should be a great manga to read but recently it hardly has a release.

Bleach:

-Also good but too bad a chapter is so short. (just a picture of a guy glaring may take up half to one page!!)

Finished:

Parasyte:

-hm...gross but nice. Reflects about humanity. Just read.

Dragon Ball:

-Simply legend.

Rurouni Kenshin:

-Just read.

Yuyu Hakusho:

-Moral of story: bad guys may not be that 'bad'.

Some things never change

2010-03-12T07:39:00.002+08:00

It's been like 5-6 years and some things just never change...

and that is sad.

cheap, good, and fast?

2010-03-06T08:09:00.002+08:00

anything that is cheap and good could not be fast.

anything that is good and fast would not be cheap.

anything that is fast and cheap might not be good.

*image courtesy of sixside.com